Celibacy Eve

I have been a natural celibate all my life mostly because those old hormones just did not turn on. This is not to mean I haven't attempted sex. But my motivations were purely social and I found it a messy and embarrassing sport. Without the required lust it all seems rather pointless. So about twenty years ago (I'm 43) I decided I didn't need the aggravation any more and quit.

There are many benefits to myself. For one thing I find I like men better because I don't have to worry about that one thing that I used to find such a pain (literally). Somehow the brighter ones sense my lack of sexual drive and like me better too. I have seen some of them through several relationships (not even the girlfriends get jealous). I have them for conversation and the girlfriends have them for sex. Sounds like a deal to me! :-)

On the other side, I feel like the ultimate perv. I am interested in (obsessed with?) news.groups and internet politics. A number of sexual persuasions (bondage, spanking and bestiality) are making their way onto the big eight. I have looked through the alt.sex groups. There is every perversion under the sun. But not mine because it's too shameful to admit I suppose. :-)

I also have to deal with the assumptions of other people when I mention my particular orientation. Because it hurts, people assume I must be psychologically damaged. Sorry, it hurts in the same way that putting my hand on a lit stove burner hurts. Just a physical pain folks. Nothing to panic about as long as we avoid that which causes it. They want me to seek therapy. For what? If the urges were there I would get *medical* help for the pain. But they're not. I suppose I could take hormone therapy for the urges, but good lord, my middle-aged friends can't get dates and want them desperately. I want to be like them?!

It's also assumed that I am a bitter old maid. Well the old maid fits (I love that term so that's what I use, freaks people out though). But I laugh a lot at lots of things and with lots of people. I reserve bitterness for office politics and weird government stuff (I am an anarchist by political persuasion).