Celibacy Stuart

My first notice of celibacy was 17 years ago on a visit to a nearby monastery. The monks had a lithesomeness of body and strikingly translucent yet sanguine complexions. I made a mental note. Not being a Catholic I perhaps idealised these gentlemen some, initally. In the last 9 years I've gotten to know many of them and I see that there are food and caffiene addictions, flagrant codependecy and a poverty that is meretricious at best, but they are not all fools or social cowards. You do get something from celibacy that you can't get any other way.
I first got involved with celibacy when I first got divorced 9 years ago. I thought I'd just clear my head a bit. What I noticed was that I get a sense of clarity, power, emotional availablity and a very powerful sense of intuition that is simply not available any other way.

I also must say that I find it impossible to maintain without other celibates to share with.

I find that I am better at work because I'm not trying to endure it. I have to change my attitude cause it ain't gonna get no better. People can feel that. They may not know what it is but they can sense it.

I take better care of myself athletically......putting in more time and in greater variety the types of sports I do. Instead of just running and doing nautilus I'll also swim, do yoga, bike and hike.

I sing more, write more music (Balzac used to measure his love affairs in how many novels he didn't write) and play my guitar more.

Socially....ironically...I am able to approach beautiful women much more freely cause I simply don't have an agenda. I also will put myself in social circumstances that normally I would want to avoid....frankly because the transmutation of sexual energy gives me more courage to do so.

Probably the clearest, most useful and important usage of conserved sexual energy is in my relationship with my 10 year old daughter. By being celibate I am able to be more emotionally present for her to joyously serve her as her father. That alone would be worth the price of admission but to be a better father, artist, athelete, friend and to get rich too? Hey! sign me up.